Beautiful Struggles

Ellie Belly,  I have asked your dad countless times over the last couple weeks if he ever looks at you and wants to cry, he always looks at me like I am crazy and just chuckles. You do captivate me Eloise Jeanne, I look at you and it is like looking at my heart beating on the outside of my chest. I have never felt more love for anyone than I do for you. I love every little nose wrinkle, every squeal, every sleepy moment, and even every cry. These last five months with you have been the most incredible and fulfilling months of my life. I adore being your dad's wife and that brings me so much pride, but being your mom is something so different. It is everything I have ever prayed for and everything I have ever dreamed about. You are our greatest love story sweet princess, you are our legacy. Someday we pray that you will have siblings and that our love will continue to grow and expand, but right in this moment you are our pride and our joy. You are our Eloise Jeanne. 

As I sit here this morning trying to put all the words that are in my head onto this paper I am having a hard time coming up with the right way to describe what I am hoping to change/do with this blog in this new season of my life. See writing has always been a passion of mine , but finding the time , finding the bravery , and just doing it is where I have struggled. I have kept this blog as more of a personal place where I write about what life is like as a Wilson here on Dusk Way , but over the years I have had dreams of making it into more of a lifestyle blog . I have so many passions and thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis but fear has held me back time and time again. Fear of not being a successful blogger , fear of what friends and family would think , and most of all fear of letting myself down . But now it is time to put that fear aside and just write, so hopefully this blog will be going through a learning curve . Ideally this blog will move from