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Where I Sit Today


A lot has changed since I last took the time to write. 
We moved apartments last February, and had my wonderful parents assist in setting up our little home.
I accepted a new position last January with a wonderful company, and have the best of friends to call co workers.  
We joined our church in July, and know that Denver is exactly where God wants us. 

Those are all the things that have changed in the last few months, but one thing has not we are still a family of two. After trying for a little one  for almost a year, and doing acupuncture for six months, we have decided to seek advice from a professional. 
On Wednesday I had my first appointment with the infertility Doctor, and I must admit that I absolutely adore her. She knows Craig Hospital, where Kaleb has been doing rehab for almost three years. She is calm and takes the time to truly explain everything that could possibly be going on. She has a wonderful team that additionally makes you feel welcomed and loved. We went through the blood work and an ultrasound to bench mark where we stand, and she has started me on new medication. 
I chose the picture above, because no matter how long I wait or how much I want it. I know that the lord has my best intentions in mind, and that I am not going through this alone. I know that I have a God who has led many women thorough this before me, and will not forsake me. I pray the words Hannah prayed as she waited for a sweet baby. I remember Sarah who the lord opened her womb. I know that the lord will bless me when the time is right, and that through this I will grow deeper to him. 
Xoxo, 
B

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  1. Praying for you and Kaleb! I know waiting for the Lord can be difficult but you are not alone. It's all in His timing and He has a plan. So glad to see you are back to writing! Love you guys!

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