Beautiful Struggles

The last two months of our lives have been a complete whirlwind of emotion, stress, and utter joy!  On March 19th we were able to endure our first IUI, where I laid very similar to Phoebe in Friend's and prayed with my husband that this would be our first and last IUI. We went in with hopeful heart's and praying minds, and knew the lord had a plan. The following weekend we went on vacation to San Diego where I unfortunately began  to believe that our IUI had not worked, and that we were not pregnant. I experienced cramps, was grumpy to my poor family, and walked around feeling like Shamu on the beach. So obviously I wasn't pregnant, right... Fast forward to March 30th, two days before I was technically supposed to test. It was a Wednesday night, a Wednesday night where I  obsessively thought about nothing else but that I wasn't pregnant. I did what any mildly obsessed woman going though infertily treatments would do, and tested. I jumped in the bath and pretended th...

A lot has changed since I last took the time to write.  We moved apartments last February, and had my wonderful parents assist in setting up our little home. I accepted a new position last January with a wonderful company, and have the best of friends to call co workers.   We joined our church in July, and know that Denver is exactly where God wants us.  Those are all the things that have changed in the last few months, but one thing has not we are still a family of two. After trying for a little one  for almost a year, and doing acupuncture for six months, we have decided to seek advice from a professional.  On Wednesday I had my first appointment with the infertility Doctor, and I must admit that I absolutely adore her. She knows Craig Hospital, where Kaleb has been doing rehab for almost three years. She is calm and takes the time to truly explain everything that could possibly be going on. She has a wonderful team that additionally makes you...

  Nancy Guthrie says it well: “If your faith is real, you will not fall away. Not because you are strong or because your faith is strong but because God has his firm grip on you and he will not let go. You will remain in him because you are his forever.” I often think back to my days in college, and oh my goodness do I sometimes wonder how I survived. I was well a wild one. I lived fully and completely in the world and of the world. I tried very hard to avoid my church home, and all the amazing loving members in it. My days were spent feeling ill from the night before's drinking, and my nights were spent trying to see how much alcohol I could ingest. My heart was anything but guarded, and I sought the attention of every man that would say hi to me. It was a dark and lonely time, and yet here I am.  I survived, and have learned so very much from those days. I look back though and realized that even though I turned my back from The Lord, he never turn...

Well here I sit enjoying my second cup of coffee, which I am slowly learning is my new minimul amount for each day. I can honestly say that I cannot function before my coffee. I am grumpy, in a daze, and flat out unable to function. I cannot start my day until I have my coffee, which I know for many of us holds true.  What if... just hear me out... instead of allowing coffee to be our sunshine in the morning we turned to God. I know that many of us enjoy our morning bible readings while sipping on this golden drink, but  really shouldn't The Lord be our refuge and strength.  Now coffee aside, there have been so many times lately in my life where I am exhausted. Not a physical exhaustion, but a complete emotional and spiritual exhaustion. An exhaustion that pulls me down into this deep place that is so very hard to climb out of. Between work, life, and still dealing with so many emotional aspects of my wonderful husband's accident sometimes it hard to see th...

How many of you have tried series after series of bible studies, but somewhere along day 20 we forget all about it. I know I myself have done this time and time again, I become disinterested in the series because well its just to long. Well ladies, I believe I have found a solution to this problem. The other day I stumbled upon #SheReadsTruth and fell madly in love. The series last only a few weeks at most, and are incredible. They are not too long, but are very deep. They are interactive with every other woman going through it, and they are just flat out amazing. And I forgot to mention... THEY HAVE AN APP!!!  So ladies I want to challenge all of you to go through the Hebrews serious listed in the link below with me. Let us dedicate the next 18 days to falling madly in love with the book of Hebrews. Let The Lord speak through this study and move mountains in our lives. Let the next 18 days just rock our world, so that we may continue to grow into the women that The Lord w...

Don't be concerned about the outward beauty that depends on fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. ~ 1 Peter 3:3-4 As I sat this morning reading this verse in search of an uplifting and powerful verse about woman, one that would make me feel as though I could take on the world and all I would need is God on my side. Well that was exactly what I found, just not in the the way I thought it would be. I thought my heart would settle upon a verse about how women are as precious as jewels, or Proverbs 31 where the whole chapter is solely about being a Godly woman. But The Lord had other plans, and if I have learned anything in the last couple of months, it is best to listen to him when he is talking.  See I am so very guilty of seeking the approval of the world , through my makeup that must be perfectly ...