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Unwavering Faith


Jesus replied, "Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. Matthew 21:21


This weekend I experience God's mercy time and time again, and was reminded to have unwavering faith in our Sovereign King. 

All of last week I spent every other day in and out of the doctor's office as we waited to get the go ahead on our first IUI. My first appointment was on Monday, and my follicles were much to small, measuring in at 11 mm and 12 mm, they must be at least 17 to move forward with the process. I proceed to go and have an ultrasound and blood draw through out the week.  I was prescribed a new medication that was suppose to speed up the growth of the follicles, and let me tell you that this new medicine was quite the adventure. 


This lovely little needle was used to stab myself every night for four nights this past week. Let's just review for a moment that I am terribly afraid of needles, and when I had my knee surgery I refused to look at my own stitches. Yes, sometimes I am still a child. 

After days of worrying, praying, and stabbing myself with beautiful needle above I went in for my last appointment for this cycle knowing that if they did not grow we would not be able to try. The Lord heard my cries, and felt my longing heart and blessed us with two follicles measuring in right where they needed to be. Now just to inform you this does mean our chance of multiples is higher because we have two follicles on the same side that are of viable size. 

Saturday morning Kaleb and I woke bright and early, and made the trek down to our Doctor's office. We appeared bright eyed and messy bunned for our first adventure down the IUI road. Now I know that there is a good chance that this round will not work, However, I experienced God's unfailing love as he allowed us to get as far as we did. 

We also were reminded to have unwavering faith as we continued the home buying process last week. We have been waiting for a week and half for the appraisal on our home so that we can check that off our list, and move onto the final stages. Everyone was very aware that the appraisal was expected to come in lower than the price we had offered, however we did not expect it to come in as dramatically lower. We want back and forth for hours on what we were willing to pay versus what they were requesting to pay. 

It was one of those situations that even though it was business, it wasn't just business. It was our home! The home that we have been praying over for several weeks now. The home that I have thoroughly decorated via Pinterest. It was the home that the sellers had told us we were the couple that they had been praying for, and that's what hurt me the most. We all felt that The Lord had opened this door for us, and yet so quickly the devil will whisper in your ear that more money is better or you can find better. 

As we drove home from the movies on Friday night I felt an incredible peace as I was reminded that our Father is faithful, understanding, and will ultimately open the right doors. I knew that he had not brought us this far to abandon us, but to grow us.  I knew that if we ultimately lost out on the house there would be another, and we would be able to continue to share his glory. 

Well Friday at 10:00pm we received the best call, they have accepted our offer. 

I knew in that moment that I need to trust in God's plans. I need to know that he loves me, and that he has the perfect timing for everything. 


He is LOVE. 

XOXO, 
B
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