Beautiful Struggles

Well we tried again, we put another offer on a house. This house met 90% of our  dream list,  and the pieces that are missing are made up by the dream neighborhood. We arrived early for the open house, and spent some time walking around the quaint little neighborhood. We wondered down to the pond with Chuck, and imagined spending our Sundays doing the same thing. We watched as children rode their bikes, scooters, and pogo sticks (yes pogo sticks) up and down the street.  As we walked through the quaint home we imagined what it would be like to host our families on Thanksgiving in the open kitchen. We spent time in the master bedroom looking at ways we can expand the master bathroom so that it is accessible, and ideal for our life. We looked at the backyard, and figured out how we would add to the deck for ideal summer fun. We looked at the room next to what would be our room, and decided it would be the perfect nursery when our time comes. As we wrapped u...

Living in Denver is a huge blessing, and we absolutely love it. We have a great group of friends, I have a wonderful career, Kaleb is pursuing the school of his dreams, and our church is where we know God has called us. All of these things make living in Denver a huge blessing, and a place that we love calling home.  That being said Denver is EXPENSIVE... for lack of better words. The housing market is rocking, and finding a place to call home is a little bit of a struggle. It's stressful, exhausting, and sometimes a bit heartbreaking. All emotions that I would really prefer not to feel.  Tuesday night we put an offer on our first dream home. I loved it, Kaleb was obsessed, and it was a place that we were ready to call home. We offered $15,000 over asking, and tried to be as competitive as possible. We prayed, and asked for guidance over the next couple of days. Wednesday night we got the call from our perfect realtor letting us know that unfortunately ...

Philippians 4:6-7 6  Do not be anxious about anything,  but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.   7  And the peace of God,  which transcends all understanding,  will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Life is filled with being busy!  You are either busy at home, busy with work, or both!  Life is filled with being busy!  For the Wilsons we have decided to see how busy we can be at this particular season in life. Kaleb is busy pursing his degree in Petroleum Engineer, which most of the time sounds like a foreign language.  I am busy with pursuing the title of "Rookie of the Year" at work, which leads to many stressful nights. And yet with all of this wonderful busyness we have also decided to throw a few more curve balls into the ball pin.  As of this past weekend we are officially on the hunt for our...

All I want for Christmas is something that can't be bought... All I want for Christmas is something that stores don't sell... All I want for Christmas is something that can't be planned... See all I want for Christmas is a Baby... I know it sounds absolutely crazy, and the reality is I have thought about writing this post for sometime.  We have been "trying to conceive" since September of 2014.  After we got married in June of 2014 we enjoyed a few months of newlywed bliss, before the idea of growing our sweet family started stewing in our heads. In October of last year I thought for certain our first round of progesterone had worked, and that we would be expecting our own little addition. I waited those three wonderful minutes, and quickly discovered I was certainly not pregnant.  Months went on, and on. The treatments continued, and I tried everything from acupuncture to eating everything under the sun that was supposed to h...

Tonight I sit and write as we make a trip that we made once before five years ago. Tonight we make the trip from Philadelphia to Cape May to attend yet another Coast Guard gravitation. As I sit here knowing my heart should be filled with pride for my youngest brother in law, it is instead filled with heartbreak. See my world looks a whole lot different than it did five years ago. See five years ago we were beginning our journey with the Coast Guard. I was a proud girlfriend in the crowd watching my handsome boyfriend pursue his passion. He stood proudly as he graduated from basic training. He was so excited for the adventures that were to come. He could not wait to report to New Orleans for his first station. He has every intention to follow his heart's desire to become a rescue diver. And for me, I knew that I had signed up to someday be his loving Coast Guard wife.  That dream was quickly shattered three years ago this week, and tonight on this car ride I sit res...

Years ago while working at Shane Co., we started an employee encouragement with the motto "Be Here Now". At the time this meant be at work while you are at work, check the home life at the door. Be with the customer that was right in front of you, don't worry about the tasks that you could be doing. Be present in whatever you are currently doing. My manager at the time gave the example of being on the phone with her parents, and while she was having a conversation she was also checking her email, watching tv, and trying to carry on a conversation. (Now for many of us this may sound like daily life, doing a million things at once.) She then continued to her story explaining that once they rolled out the motto of "Be Here Now", she really tried to be more attentive to whatever task was in front of her. She actually had conversation with her family, her emails were actually understood, and everyone in her life felt more engaged with her. Little did I know wh...

TimeHop... An app that I both love and hate. An app that allows me to see what silly things I have posted in the past on this day as long ago as I have been on social media! This app has allowed for me to see the transformation of Kaleb and I's relationship, the friends I have developed over the years, and the way may faith has grown. It is normally the thing that makes me giggle through out the day.  Today there was a little less giggling as I reflected upon my TimeHop. Today the photo that popped up was of Kaleb and I standing together for the last time as two able bodied individuals.  Three years ago today we walked around the glorious city of New Orleans looking at engagement rings, while strolling hand in hand. We enjoyed a meal on the river, and took in the sounds of one of our favorite neighborhoods.  We went to a jazz concert off of bourbon with two of our favorite coasters. We wondered around bourbon street with several of Kaleb's dearist friends, an...