Beautiful Struggles

How often do we go through life pretending that everything is great; we post only the best photos, we smile when we would rather cry, and we float through life faking it the best we can. We run into friends at church on Sunday mornings and chat about how wonderful we are and how great everything is, but we leave out the fact that all we could really use is a hug and a gentle reminder that it's perfectly okay to not be okay. In fact the crazy part of it all is it's perfectly normal to go through life with emotions, heck Jesus himself felt emotions. I'm sure we all remember when he got mad in the temple and flipped the table, well in that moment he wasn't okay. As a new mom still adjusting to this wonderful world of motherhood I find myself not okay pretty often. I'm either exhausted because the baby didn't sleep or because the baby nursed all day, or I'm feeling a little lost trying to rediscover my role as Brittany, or I'm just a little anxious becaus...

Happy Half Birthday Ellie Girl,  It is bitter sweet to sit here and write your six month blog post, which is probably why I have put it off. The days are going by faster and faster, and I would do anything to slow them down just a tiny bit. I find myself rubbing your perfect smooth wonderful face trying to memorize exactly what it feels like because I know it will change so soon. I rub your sweet little hair that is finally coming in embracing the gentle feeling of peach fuzz. I take a million pictures because I know these days are short and these moments are priceless. The last six months of our lives have been enchanting with you by our side. Being your mom is more incredible than I could ever imagine. You bring me so much joy, I feel so much pride, you are the best part of me. These six months have been the greatest and you sweet baby are to thank! This month you have once again been a little busy bee! You learned to  roll from back to tummy and now spend mos...

Ellie Belly,  I have asked your dad countless times over the last couple weeks if he ever looks at you and wants to cry, he always looks at me like I am crazy and just chuckles. You do captivate me Eloise Jeanne, I look at you and it is like looking at my heart beating on the outside of my chest. I have never felt more love for anyone than I do for you. I love every little nose wrinkle, every squeal, every sleepy moment, and even every cry. These last five months with you have been the most incredible and fulfilling months of my life. I adore being your dad's wife and that brings me so much pride, but being your mom is something so different. It is everything I have ever prayed for and everything I have ever dreamed about. You are our greatest love story sweet princess, you are our legacy. Someday we pray that you will have siblings and that our love will continue to grow and expand, but right in this moment you are our pride and our joy. You are our ...

As I sit here this morning trying to put all the words that are in my head onto this paper I am having a hard time coming up with the right way to describe what I am hoping to change/do with this blog in this new season of my life. See writing has always been a passion of mine , but finding the time , finding the bravery , and just doing it is where I have struggled. I have kept this blog as more of a personal place where I write about what life is like as a Wilson here on Dusk Way , but over the years I have had dreams of making it into more of a lifestyle blog . I have so many passions and thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis but fear has held me back time and time again. Fear of not being a successful blogger , fear of what friends and family would think , and most of all fear of letting myself down . But now it is time to put that fear aside and just write, so hopefully this blog will be going through a learning curve . Ideally this blog will move from...

My Sweet Eloise Jeanne,  You are becoming less and less little baby and more and more little girl. Your eyes show so much emotion, they smile long before your mouth does. You take the world in, observing everything that goes on around you. I want to so badly keep you in this home sheltered from the great big world, but I know that someday you will be on your own figuring things out as you go. So for now I will cuddle you, love on you, and pray over you. You are everything imagined you would be and so much more. It has only been four months with you, and yet I feel like you have been with me forever. I love every second with you; even the moments that I am knee deep in a blow out or covered in your spit up because I know they are moments that will go by to fast.  You are a busy little girl and month four was no different! GG came to visit and so did grandma and grandpa, they all love watching you grow and learn! You love being cuddled by GG and ...

Hello Little Lady,  You are a fourth of a way through the most incredible year. Your little personality is shinining through more and more every day and I love seeing you change. When you are home with Mom and Dad you are filled with coos, smiles, and squeaks yet when we are out you are quiet, peaceful, and observant. Your smile lights up the world, your squeaks are the sweetest sounds I have ever heard, and your cuddles, your cuddles prove to me that my arms were made to hold you forever. You were made for me and I was made for you.  The lord knit you together in my womb and kept you for nine wonderful months. He then trusted your Dad and me to fill your life with love, guidance from the lord, and wisdom that can only be found through him. For these reasons on February 4th 2017 at Harvest Bible Chapel we dedicated ourselves to seek the lord first and foremost in raising you. This was one of the most wonderful days that we have experienced with you. It was simple, ...

  Two months, I still am not sure how I have already been called Mama by this beautiful little girl for two months but I have. And after two months, or 61 days I will admit I have learned a few things in this short time that I would love to share with those other mamas out there.  • Don't be afraid of the bottle.  For us Eloise was introduced to the bottle when we were in the hospital because she was three weeks early and a c section my milk was a little delayed so she was fed a little off of me and then given donor milk. She had a hard time staying awake for a whole feeding so donor milk allowed her to be bottle. Anyways we continued to give her my pumped milk in a bottle nearly once a day so that Kaleb could participate in the bonding experience.  So my adivice to you new moms out there is don't be afraid to allow the bottle in your life, dad will love the opportunity to participate!  •Sleep when they sleep.  Everyone will tell you this, but it is so hard...